In need of an Umbrella.

Today I wrote another paper for school that I feel had no real bearing on my education.  It happens. 
I encountered a problem today that I was not ready for.  Do you know how people always say, "When it rains, it pours!"?  Well, Rob told me one time that the biblical meaning for rain is actually a good thing.  Rain brings life and washes away death, or something like that.  In that case, I really need it to rain again.  I am in the middle of some powerful decisions.  I have to find and be approved for my practicum site.  I have not even begun to apply for one.  It is inevitable, and yet it scares me.  Rob says I tend to live my life one apprehension to the next.  I am not sure why I do this, but I see his point.  Looking forward, I see the end in sight at my current job.  It is not possible to work there and complete my next stage in education.  The scary part, though, is that it will mean a complete loss of my income for at least four to six months.  I don't need to tell you that is a long time.  So, instead I keep dragging my feet and chewing my lip. 
On the upside, I am now able to drink diet pepsi and enjoy it.  If only that meant I was losing some of this fleshly baggage! 
:)